{"id":54,"date":"2008-03-20T01:49:05","date_gmt":"2008-03-20T06:49:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.dap.ro\/?p=54"},"modified":"2008-03-20T01:49:05","modified_gmt":"2008-03-20T06:49:05","slug":"poezie-din-egophobia-17","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/?p=54","title":{"rendered":"poezie din EgoPHobia #17"},"content":{"rendered":"

G\u00e2ndire de Putin\u0103 (stinking thinking)<\/strong><\/p>\n

de Adrian Ioni\u0163\u0103<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00cen Pia\u0163a Traian,<\/p>\n

Lic\u0103 avea un veri\u015for,<\/p>\n

st\u0103tea peste drum de clopotul lui Soso,<\/p>\n

ne-am dus la el \u00eempreun\u0103 \u015fi<\/p>\n

am v\u0103zut pentru prima dat\u0103 o femeie;<\/p>\n

era diferit\u0103,<\/p>\n

s-a apropiat de mine, m-a mirosit, m-a m\u00e2ng\u00e2iat u\u015for pe obraz, apoi<\/p>\n

a \u00eentrebat, „unde a\u0163i g\u0103sit \u00eengera\u015ful acesta?” \u015fi<\/p>\n

s-a aruncat \u00een pat l\u00e2ng\u0103 Bebe,<\/p>\n

au b\u0103ut tescovin\u0103 \u015fi s-au futut \u00een fa\u0163a mea lasciv,<\/p>\n

c\u0103ut\u00e2nd reac\u0163ii \u015fi umbre pe fa\u0163a mea purie.
\n
\nDeasupra patului, \u0163iganca cu pip\u0103<\/p>\n

era p\u0103tat\u0103 de c\u0103cat de mu\u015fte, camera se l\u0103\u0163ea amenin\u0163\u0103tor,<\/p>\n

Bebe b\u0103ga p\u00e2na la os,<\/p>\n

\u00een timp ce femeia \u00eencepuse s\u0103 groh\u0103ie,<\/p>\n

nu \u015ftiam ce s\u0103 fac, pumnii mi s-au albit \u00een str\u00e2nsoare,<\/p>\n

am s\u0103rit peste ei cu furie<\/p>\n

\u015fi perdeaua de la ferestr\u0103 a tres\u0103rit usor.<\/p>\n

„hai s\u0103 mergem”<\/p>\n

mi-a spus Lic\u0103, \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie<\/p>\n

erau mititei \u015fi mu\u015ftar verde, p\u00e2ine neagr\u0103 \u015fi sticle de bere<\/p>\n

blond\u0103, era 1 mai, era s\u0103rb\u0103toare, am m\u00e2ncat,<\/p>\n

am fugit \u00een pia\u0163\u0103<\/p>\n

\u015fi ne-am aruncat \u00een genunchi printre oamenii din \u00eenghesuial\u0103,<\/p>\n

monede argintii de un leu c\u0103deau sub tejghele,<\/p>\n

le str\u00e2ngeam febril,<\/p>\n

\u00een timp ce be\u0163ivii \u015fi solda\u0163ii veni\u0163i \u00een permisie<\/p>\n

ne c\u0103lcau pe m\u00e2ini cu bocancii.<\/p>\n

14 lei a fost prima mea leaf\u0103, aveam ochi buni \u015fi<\/p>\n

m\u00e2na sub\u0163ire, Lic\u0103 a str\u00e2ns opt, m\u0103 sim\u0163eam m\u00e2ndru<\/p>\n

\u015fi victorios, ne-am cump\u0103rat cornete de semin\u0163e,<\/p>\n

\u00een\u015furubate \u00een discursurile lui Dej,<\/p>\n

25 de bani unul mare, le vindea o bab\u0103 l\u00e2ng\u0103 Shari Neni,<\/p>\n

dovleac portocaliu, miros cald de pr\u0103jeli,<\/p>\n

se sp\u0103rgeau \u00eentre din\u0163i.<\/p>\n

insecte s\u0103rate.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

m\u0103 sim\u0163eam diminuat, intractabil,<\/p>\n

pentru mine conta<\/p>\n

alian\u0163a cu o lume necunoscut\u0103, mai mult dec\u00e2t<\/p>\n

identificarea cu cea \u00een care tr\u0103iam.<\/p>\n

\u00a91973 Adrian Ioni\u0163\u0103<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

L-am \u00eempu\u015fcat cu sentimentul c\u0103 \u00eei fac o favoare,<\/p>\n

c\u0103 \u00eel scot din mizeria propriei sale poveri,<\/p>\n

apoi am sim\u0163it deodat\u0103, c\u0103 lumea devine str\u00e2mt\u0103,<\/p>\n

c\u0103 existen\u0163a mea s-a sub\u0163iat,<\/p>\n

ceva debilitant \u015fi paradoxal m\u0103 incapaciteaz\u0103,<\/p>\n

o sl\u0103biciune care te face s\u0103 te sim\u0163i precar,<\/p>\n

eventual,<\/p>\n

devenea din ce \u00een ce mai clar c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 fac ceva,<\/p>\n

c\u0103 pierd autonomie,<\/p>\n

martori invizibili, un moment f\u0103r\u0103 recurs, pe care \u00eel sim\u0163eam<\/p>\n

neterminat,<\/p>\n

s\u0103 merg p\u00e2n\u0103 la cap\u0103t, s\u0103 termin aceast\u0103 scen\u0103?<\/p>\n

\u00eemi preg\u0103team involuntar ap\u0103rarea,<\/p>\n

un discurs lung \u015fi patetic despre condi\u0163ia uman\u0103,<\/p>\n

\u015fi alian\u0163a mea mistic\u0103 cu Universul Moral,<\/p>\n

martorii d\u0103deau din cap a aprobare,<\/p>\n

o t\u0103ietur\u0103 de lam\u0103 a \u00eemp\u0103r\u0163it \u00eenc\u0103perea \u00een for\u0163e egal justificate,<\/p>\n

binele si r\u0103ul sunt no\u0163iuni abstracte, nu sunt preg\u0103tit emo\u0163ional<\/p>\n

pentru remu\u015fc\u0103ri.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

demonic<\/p>\n

ai dus o via\u0163\u0103 lipsit\u0103 de improviza\u0163ii, cu schimb\u0103ri impreceptibile,<\/p>\n

supa se servea nes\u0103rat\u0103 \u015fi singura b\u0103utur\u0103 \u00een cas\u0103 era vi\u015finata.<\/p>\n

la unsprezece ani, mi-ai f\u0103cut cadou Cartea Ateistului<\/p>\n

pe care o r\u0103sfoiam pentru poze,<\/p>\n

altfel ce pot s\u0103<\/p>\n

spun?<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

momentul a sosit inevitabil,<\/p>\n

l-am sim\u0163it \u00een aer, o dezintegrare \u00een stagii,<\/p>\n

\u00een care orice subterfugii cereau un pre\u0163, \u00een care devenise fantomabil<\/p>\n

c\u0103 te a\u015fteptai s\u0103 fiu ca tine, s\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i absorb neputin\u0163a \u015fi vinov\u0103\u0163ia,<\/p>\n

un martiraj pe care n-am vrut s\u0103 \u00eel accept<\/p>\n

\u015fi atunci,<\/p>\n

ai devenit un monstru, ai scos cureaua, ai dat cu sete \u015fi s\u0103lb\u0103ticie<\/p>\n

p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd<\/p>\n

catarama a \u00eenceput s\u0103 sf\u00e2\u015fie buc\u0103\u0163i de carne din mine,<\/p>\n

\u00een timp ce<\/p>\n

te priveam cu o curiozitate t\u0103cut\u0103, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 ghicesc<\/p>\n

cine sunt pentru tine, pe cine ucid<\/p>\n

demonii t\u0103i,<\/p>\n

d\u0103deai \u00een carne din carnea ta, vedeam<\/p>\n

disperarea din ochii t\u0103i \u015fi str\u00e2ngeam<\/p>\n

din din\u0163i \u00eentrerupt de urletul<\/p>\n

de pas\u0103re r\u0103nit\u0103 al mamei,<\/p>\n

c\u00e2nd<\/p>\n

ai aruncat cureaua,<\/p>\n

\u0163i-ai \u015fters borboanele de sudoare \u015fi ai ie\u015fit din camer\u0103.<\/p>\n

A fost ziua transferului inexorabil de autoritate,<\/p>\n

ordinea \u00een care se umplea farfuria de supa la mas\u0103<\/p>\n

s-a schimbat,<\/p>\n

\u015fi modul nostru primitiv de a supravie\u0163ui a suferit o<\/p>\n

transmutare eliberatoare,<\/p>\n

de parc\u0103 am fi ie\u015fit dintr-o iarn\u0103 lung\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00e2ndire de Putin\u0103 (stinking thinking) de Adrian Ioni\u0163\u0103 \u00cen Pia\u0163a Traian, Lic\u0103 avea un veri\u015for, st\u0103tea peste drum de clopotul lui Soso, ne-am dus la el \u00eempreun\u0103 \u015fi am v\u0103zut pentru prima dat\u0103 o femeie; era diferit\u0103, s-a apropiat de mine, m-a mirosit, m-a m\u00e2ng\u00e2iat u\u015for pe obraz, apoi a \u00eentrebat, „unde a\u0163i g\u0103sit \u00eengera\u015ful […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-54","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-17"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=54"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/54\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=54"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=54"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=54"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}